I've had so much work to do recently with no time for an update. Got accepted to Massey. So I've been trying to decide whether or not to go to New Zealand or stay in Columbus. There's that part of me that feels like a failure for wanting to go to OSU. Almost everyone I tell the news to encourages me to go to New Zealand. So I'm stuck with do I want to give up everything I have here to go on an adventure? Who knows if I'll keep in contact with the people I know in Columbus when I'm in school anyway? Who knows if my cats would be happier with me or someone else? I can't put them through that travel and quarantine.

And I was planning on going to Mexico and a couple places in the US this summer because OSU doesn't start until September. Massey starts in July...that gives me about 2 months to get my life together. I take comfort in what hi_amity_an_elk wrote and my sister saying "don't go to Massey because you want to visit New Zealand, you can take a vacation some day"

I visited Chicago this weekend. I enjoyed being there...seems like you need a lot of money to live in that city though.

The other day I was thinking about playing Tetris. It's really a wonderful game, an apparently "Tetris 'could boost brain power'." Practicing the game causes..."structural changes" in parts of their brains "associated with movement, critical thinking, reasoning, language and processing," Perhaps I should start playing Tetris again...for the good of my brain, of course.

The version of Tetris I challenge anyone to is the one produced for the Nintendo64.



That's right "4 Player Frenzy!" Remember those crazy square things you can make with this version?



All this talk of Tetris is making me want it more. I think I'll go get my system out and see what kind of skills I have (or have lost). The problem with Tetris for me has always been that I can end up playing one run for like an hour. Then I've lost a whole hour of my life! I can't keep doing that, I have better things to do than that...well I need to remember it's like exercise for my brain...

Check this out people: www.graygirls.com (not to be confused with gaygirls.com)

And perhaps I could add this to my wardrobe:

So the other day I was killing some time on Facebook and I thought, why not see if there's some sort of group/page/whatever they are called out there for people who don't want to dye their grey hair. To my surprise I found none! In fact, I found several groups for people to display their hatred for grey hair and how much they want to dye it. In addition, there are a couple talking about how much they hate Stacey London's streak of grey hair. Now, I'm not down with pop culture and I didn't know who Stacey London was, but come on, why devote a group to hatred of a streak of grey hair? Can't we devote our time to more positive things?

Anyway, so now I'm considering making a group for people who wish to embrace their grey hair. My reasons include - less time spent worrying if my roots are showing too much, less chemicals on my skin, and less waste (those dyes have a lot of packaging and such, and don't forget about the manufacturing facility wastes, transportation costs, etc).

I will admit no one ever tells me they like the color of my hair anymore, (perhaps that's because they know it's natural now and before they knew it was unnatural) I used to get several compliments a month. But I think that's because it's not socially acceptable for young women to have grey hair. Even ladies who are in their 80s/90s dye their hair. When I'm 80 I pray I don't feel the need to dye my hair - I don't see the purpose - by that point I'll be old, old people have grey hair, get over it.

But I really don't think people would join my group for people with grey hair. And then wouldn't that look great? Not only will I be one of the few 20-something year-olds not dyeing their grey hair, I will also be all alone in my group for it. I'd be like the one at the dance standing in the corner. Or maybe there's someone out there who's thinking the same thing I am, waiting for this group to start so we can take a stand and stop covering up who we are.

Disclaimer: So I mentioned that my parents had this page bookmarked at some point, and if you are indeed my parents I don't believe you want to read this next part.

I had one of those dreams last night. The thing is, it was only me. Actually when I have dreams involving sex it's usually just me. Sometimes there are people in the room with me and why they aren't joining in I don't know. Sometimes I'm embarrassed about the possibility about being caught, sometimes I'm just out there with everyone else around. This time I was alone. I used to like to think I was doomed to be alone forever due to these dreams.

I decided to look it up at the first Web-site that comes up when I googled "dream dictionary" (sounds reasonable)...dreammoods.com

To dream that you are masturbating, represents your unacknowledged and unexpressed sexual needs/desires.

I will say recently I have very much acknowledged some desires I have, but there's more? I wonder if these desires are with someone I haven't consciously thought about, because trust me I think about some desires more than I should.

It may also indicate you need to take care of yourself in sensual or emotional ways which are not necessarily sexual.

I roll my eyes when it comes to taking care of myself emotionally.

You may need to put forth a little more effort toward some relationship.

More effort to a relationship? What relationship? Well, I understand I can have a relationship with myself, but I already have a pretty good one (and I dream about it apparently).

Some dreams mean nothing, they are just dreams. So it looks like I'm going to ignore my dream or write it off as something that was just a dream.

I was accepted to The University of Illinois College of Veterinary Medicine! I am still waiting to hear from Massey University. We'll see.

I can't believe I was accepted, seriously the odds of being accepted to vet school for out of state people are much lower than the already low odds. Urbana, IL was cute. But at one point I asked one of the current vet students what she liked to do. She mentioned something about going downtown. I asked how to get to downtown. As she gave me directions I realized I had passed through downtown the night before and didn't know it...

I'm not going to Illinois, but it's nice to have that option to say "no thanks."

One of my favorite web sites to peruse is McSweeney's and I have read every Open Letter to People or Entities Who are Unlikely to Respond. Some are gems, some are not, but there's always another one just around the corner...

I'm finishing up "The Secret History" a book by Donna Tartt. It was not at all what I thought it would be and I very much enjoyed it once I got into it. Josh's brother gave it to me to read, and I'm really glad he did.

Anyway, I'm looking for a new book to read (fiction or autobiographical)...suggestions?

So this past couple of days I've been at the Midwest Veterinary Conference. For everyone who does a poor job stalking me, I've been accepted to OSU's DVM class of 2014. Still waiting to hear from Illinois and Massey. Not holding my breath for Massey, but that would be quite a decision to make.

I seriously think I'm getting too set in my ways. The thought of putting all that effort into going to a different country for 4 years is exhausting. Plus I'd have to make new friends, and I'd lose the friends I already have. But it would be an adventure! Well we'll see I'm not accepted yet.

Tonight I'm heading back to where the most awkward time of my life occurred - Strongsville, and I will be watching my friends do some improv things which should be funny.

Found this site (http://www.spinnwebe.com/quiztaker/solvent.php) book-marked on my home computer and thought "what the?" Then I clicked on it and remembered that I am kind of a nerd...

Tetrachloroethane: You are the first chlorine-containing solvent produced in high quantities before World War I. Your primary uses before WWII included industrial cleaner and solvent thinner. You do not attach to soil particles, and break down slowly in air or water. Find out what kind of industrial solvent you are

Seriously folks, solvents are no laughing matter. Handle all hazardous chemicals in an appropriate manner, and if you don't know what that manner is, don't handle it.